Where were you?

Now that the day is almost over, I would like to ask a question. Just something that I have been curious about over the years.

Where were you? What were you doing when the towers were hit?

I was getting ready for Government Class...ironic huh? I was back living at home with my parents and Dad always watched the news in the morning. I had gotten up about 7:00 and ate a little breakfast and took my shower. I was in my bedroom combing my hair when I heard Daddy say "My God they flew a plane into that building...idiots.." He did not know it was terrorist.

I came out of the bedroom to see what he was talking about and seen the Towers on the screen...as Dad and I were watching in shock, they discovered that it had been a plane...We actually seen the second plane fly through the air and circle around the buildings and hit the second building ....it was live....I will never forget the shock...never...I wasnt in New York, I was in my own living room watching it live on TV....

I finished getting ready for class, and as I was walking out the door, they announced that one had hit the pentagon. I went to class, 45 minutes away from home only to discover that my pshycotic depressed history teacher had canceled class and locked himself in his office watching the stuff. So, I went back home and watched news all day with daddy.

It was very upsetting and Dad was very emotional. See, he is a Vietnam vet and for him to sit back and watch someone attack our country that he had been drafted too fight for was very disturbing. I watched his face go from pale shock to red anger back to pale shock. I do not know how many cigarettes he went through that morning and I cant remember how many times he bowed his head and said "My God"

When we talked about it later, he said he couldnt believe that someone would attack a country that had proved they would help anybody. He said they had fought for how many countries when they didnt have to and then someone attacks them (US) He went through alot that day. I know I wasnt in New York but I will never forget that day. You see. I was allowed to see a part of that mind that I wonder so much about and for a day, I was allowed to see some of the pain that hides deep in there.

No I am not thanking the terrorist, I would never do that. I would never promote something so horrible. I am thanking God that I was able to be there that day. That my government class was canceled and that I went back home instead of to my boyfriends house. I am thanking God because now I understand a little part of my Daddy a little better. And I am thanking God that my Daddy came home from Vietnam. Some kids Daddys never come home.

God Bless.

Thank You God

9-11

Remember 9-11 ?

Today they are playing live feed on CNN.com. I do not have TV so I have been listening to this and watching parts of it while I am cleaning house, mostly playing with my babies. I cant watch it too much because it is too sad. There are grown sometimes big strong looking men on there crying because of friends they lost. There are kids walking down the rows with pictures of men or women and you have to guess that they are now living without that parent. Some of them dont look much older than 6 or 7 which means they were either born not too long before or not too long after it happened. How sad....

I am sitting here thinking how our AMERICA has changed. we are no longer the free country we used to be. Everyday now is a worry about whether someone else is going to attack us. I have to raise my kids up with this. I have to explain to them how something like that could happen. And the question everyone always ask when something like this happens is "How could God allow this to happen?" I know someday my kids are going to ask that...How do I answer it?
Edited: Happy Momma pointed out in her comment that not everyone has to worry about whether someone else is going to attack us. I did not mean that everyone has to worry about it. I know that it is in the back of my mind alot but not a constant worry. I also dont believe that we are no longer free, just not free to a point. I mean we now have restrictions on us that we didnt before. If you are a person who travels alot, then you know. I am sorry if I came across as someone who worries about it constantly, I dont. Just about the people I know over in the east who are fighting this war now. And I am learning everyday to turn it over to God and let him handle it. He can take care of them if they will just let him. I cant worry about them, I can pray for them.

SAD...

Reas,Sarah, Kyra,Drake....I m thinking about you today....
Cathena, I know your husband is over there...
Holly, I hope Ryan comes home safe.
Trent, if you are back over there, I pray for you.
And My cousin Bradley, I dont know if you are still over there, I know you have been and I hope you are home safe by now.


And to all the others I know but cant think of th names right now...God Bless You and Go With You, I pray for you everyday that you may come home alive. I pray that you will still have some sanity and that you come home healthy. I cant imagine what you go through everyday but I am glad someone has the courage to do it.

I know that I wasnt going to post for a while but I hd to post today...