Not Today.....

I was going to post on my Bible reading and the book that I am reading but I woke up last night with a Migraine so I will not be doing that much today. I will try to post on it as soon as I feel better....

Love and Prayers
Crystal

Relaxation

You know I always thought that people were crazy when they said they meditated..Now I dont think they are so nuts.

I actually tried it this morning. I sat in my livingroom floor before the kids got up and I just did the deep breathing and clear your mind kind of thing...I felt so much better. It was like I could feel the tension leave me and i could just relax.

I think in the morning i am going to try it outside. You know early in the morning, you can still hear the crickets and the night sounds. I love that time of day. So relaxing in its self but add meditation to it. Even if I have to get up before Paul I think I will do it. I can always take a nap with the girls right?

I will try to post some more stuff tonight. Right now I need to go switch the never ending pile of laundry and put up crayons so we can eat lunch.

Love and Prayers
Crystal

My little secret.

I have a little secret. It is called depression......I have posted on it some before but have been struggling with it alot here lately....It has gotten worse since Jason was born and didnt seem to be going away. As I have said before I cant afford the doctor or medicines to treat it.

I have been considering taking herbal medicines (st johns wart) for it but have seen people that take this and dont like some of the side effects. So I prayed about it and prayed about it and feel that God has given me an answer.

I have found that taking Super B Complex and lots of Vitamin C has helped so much. I have been taken it for 2 weeks now and I have noticed a difference this week. Each day is better. I have more energy, I yell at my kids less, I dont have as many mad or hateful thoughts towards my husband, and I smile alot more.


I am not completely sure about sharing this. I may delete it in a few days, but for now it is here to help whoever it can help.

I am a very private person when it comes to my depression. I have always been the strong one and taken it all and never complained. I cant do that anymore. I have to have help.

Please pray for me that I will keep getting better and that my family will grow stronger because of this.

Love and Prayers
Crystal

Miscelaneous (sp)

I just got home from the doctor with Jason....Shot time...yuck...Anyway, He will be okay. I am going to be going to my family's in a little while. So.....

I updated my weight goal. THanks to all the wonderful cooking at Church Camp, I gained my 5 pounds back.....lol Oh well, I need to get back on track and start exercising again....

Love and Prayers.

Weight Loss

I just wanted to update on my weight loss goal. I have not lost pounds but I have lost inches. How that happens I dont know...but I am happy because this means I can wear smalller clothes and eventually the weight will come off... So I am still trying. We will see how it goes.

Different things.

Some different things

First, We have had a bad week. Hasnt anything went right and when we try to get caught up or ahead, everthing seems to get behind. Anyway, I only lost one more pound but I havent been eating right and no exercise to speak of. I will try to get back on track next week. (I had ice cream this week with the kids)

Second, We had a fun day the other day (we gave up since nothing was going right and took a break. I will try and post pictures later but I have got to pay bills and buy some groceries today and Jack is supposed to come over tonight and we are going to go to the park (if it is not raining.) We try to spend all our time with him when he is over. So if I dont get them up before he gets here, i will try to do it sometime later.

Third, I am really trying to get my bearings on this homeschool stuff...there is so much stuff out there and so many different resources. But the more I read about it and the more I watch my kids while we are doing school, the more I am convinced that this is the best thing for them and that We will be okay. I CAN DO THIS!!!!! It may be tough at times but I can do it.

Fourth, I realized why our week was going bad yesterday. I am not spending enough time studying and praying. Sleep deprivation and little or no studying or prayer does not go well together. I have got to make time to study more.

I guess that is all for today and I will try and get the pictures up. I may wait and put pictures up of the park if we get to go.

Love and Prayers
Crystal

Wednesday update and apology

I am sorry I didnt update yesterday. My internet is acting up and I dont even know if this will make it on here. I did not lose any more weight according to the scales, but I can get on a size smaller pants and a size smaller dress that I had hanging in my closet. Now keep in mind that they are not a very good fit but the fact that I can put them on and actually button them makes me happy. I did not get to walk very much last week because of all the rain and I have not purchased my DVD's for walking indoors yet. I found some that are supposed to be really good and want to try them but we have to put new tires on Pauls car this week and since he uses it to go to work I think they are more important than my DVD's dont you.

I started really trying with the school stuff this week. I have finally found enough energy and Kylie is all for it so we did some handwriting worksheets and worked with the letter A and Alaina colored with a red Crayon and Colored the letter A. It is so cute cause when I would ask her what color she had she would tell me ELMO.....well he is red at least she can match colors but hey, she is only two so what more can I expect since I havent really worked with her all that much.

Anyway, Jason's Colic has returned in full force so I have less time at nights now and since my days are so full of learning I may not post as much, I will try though. But if I dont, have patience......

Love and Prayers

Weight loss kids menu

Okay to start with, I dont have time today. My kids are sick and cranky and my husband is working late yet again and i am tired. I have lost 4 lbs this week. I know that is more than I had hoped for but it came off so I am not complaining. So.......................................

220
-160
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60
- 4
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56

I only have 56 more lbs to lose but on the bright side I did lose 4!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Anyway, if you notice my menu missing this week It is because we dont have one......lol WE are winging it. I started one but with two sick kids, it is rough..

Kids......Alaina has an ear infection in both ears.....Jason has Bronchitis and almost an ear infection,, she is glad we caught it... I have to take them back next wednesday and if they run any fever at all Thursday night or Friday morning, I am to take them back in. She doesnt want them going the weekend with fever.

We really have a great doctor. she has raised 4 of her own kids and has a grandbaby so she is pretty wise to all the tricks they can pull when they dont feel good...Hey anybody that can get my stubborn two year old to open her mouth is doing good....

Love and Prayers.

ps...Julie is back sometimes if you want to catch up with her. She says she is feeling better. About as good as you can feel with sleep deprivation. I know how you feel Julie. I am still there some weeks. Love Ya though....

Dieting and Exercise

I know I know....dirty words huh......I found on one of the blogs I read that the lady is doing something called Tell the Truth Tuesday, I thought I might do mine on Wednesday since that is uaually my down day. By down I dont mean that I have nothinhg to do, I mean it is usually my most depressing day. I figure if i do this then if I make any progress it will pick me up and if I dont then it wont make any difference.

anyway, this woman began by posting her beginning weight and how many pounds she has lost in the past week and her desired wieght loss goal.. And every tuesday, she post how she is doing. she also posted some tips on wight loss today. I have the same problem as her, I crave sweets and carbohydrates......which essentially means that i dont have enough protein in my diet. So......I am going to post my current weight, which isnt pretty, my goal weight and then next week we will post and see if I have lost or gained and what improvements I need to make.

Current weight--220 (told you it wasnt pretty.....)
Goal weight -----160
Total to lose------601bs.

If I can lose a total of 2lbs a week, then i can reach this in 30 weeks. But I will hit a point where it doesnt come off as easy. So then I will have to either exercise more or figure out different foods to eat.

But for now, starting tonight,

• Eat smaller portions
• keep walking (have been doing laps around my back yard. go ahead and laugh but it is a huge backyard and i did 30 laps in 15 minutes the other night plus jumping jacks and jumping rope with kylie.....)
• Do Tae Bo twice a week. ( I love Kick boxing)
• Dont eat as many sweets. Or none at all (dont think i can do this)
• Cut back on carbs but not entirely because it is not good to do completely without carbs.

I cannot afford to eat like someone on a diet because that would mean buying and cooking two different meals for my family. Paul will eat some healthier but not completely like I want to and since he is the head of the household, I have to do as he says. If I had more grocery money then I probably could afford it but I am not asking for it right now.

I have tried eating those Weight Watchers meals and the Desserts.....They are okay but they dont satisfy me...I think I need to really be able to afford to eat what I really want...Steaks and Salads...I would be really happy and since I would be getting lots of protein then maybe I wouldnt crave the sweets...

Oh well, I have to go to WAL Mart today (ughhhh) and I guess I will get me some peanuts or something like that and lots of fruit and start snacking on those when I want something sweet.. We will see how it goes. Any suggestions please let me know. I really want to lose this weight. I have been carrying it around for 4 years now. (since kylie was born and with each pregnancy I kept about 10 lbs of it) Anyway..... Wish me luck and hope I do well... If you want to join in with me it would be great and I could use the support...maybe with all the motivation, we could really lose some weight.

Just a note, I am not only wanting to lose some weight, I want to be in shape.....I miss being in shape like I was when I played Basketball in High school.....

Love and Prayers.